its amazing how a nugget of information can undo all that had took so long to build up
a bucket of icy, cold water dousing out all the warmth
joy, contentment, satisfaction
all gone within that split second as the words registered
everything replaced by a feeling that i cant explain and describe
a mixture of anger, sadness and disappointment as well as an unidentifiable feeling X
why does this always happen?

it was the one of the best week this year
why did it have to end this way?

it has really been just a dream after all
i am now awake..