i am supposed to be doing work now
got loads of stuff due tmr or today
in about twelve hours
but
i haven't done any of it
and i seriously do not feel like doing any of it
why?
i do not know
simply cant get myself to sit down and understand the many complex concepts which my little brain has no way of absorbing now
neither do i have the energy to go investigate food laws and labelling regulations
save me
so, the logical solution would be for me to retire for the day and make another attempt tmr morning, right?
right.
but i cant do that
blame it on my good friend named insomnia
not the club/pub
but the symptom/illness/disease
whatever you want to call it
something i know too well for my own good
rahh
so i am sitting here typing in this whole chunk of random rantings, whinings and complaints
when i ought to be doing something more constructive and useful
sigh

just suddenly thought of the egg, carrot and coffee story
how life is like a pot of boiling water
and you can either be the egg, carrot or coffee

the water turned the egg hard inside
the parallel to the cold, depressed, this-is-my-lot perspectivc in human
when one feels that life hasn't been fair to them

the carrot will turn soft and lose its form
which may be how many will become
bend to the needs of the society
give up their own ideals and principle
lose the spirit to fight
basically become soft as we know the word when applied to a person

whereas for coffee, the longer it's boiled, the more fragrant and aromatic it becomes
hence, it is actually the model object in the little story
if there is such a thing
to learn from your experiences and become a better person with every trial and tribulation
that would be the ideal situation
but how many has this strength and determination in them?
i dunno
but i sure hope there will be more "coffees" around
so that the world will be a better place
and hopefully i can become one of them too

simply cuz carrots and egg(actually the yolk) are things i do not like
in both ways
hahah

i know, i know
this is a totally random entry
but then again, most of my posts are simply random anyway