for starters, i think i am pretty amazing
i freaking came home at 0430 and i was up at 0830
fine, i didn't want to but ended up waking up anyway
but no, that is not the amazing thing
the amazing thing is that my brain is still functioning and i am thinking through stuff very calmly
i wonder why
maybe lack of sleep kinda curbs my temper
right
what rubbish right??
but it sure feels that way
or maybe, i simply have learnt the hard way that taking things too seriously at times simply just kills you
sometimes, it is better and wiser to let go
especially of insignificant things that are not really consequential
sigh
but that does not mean there isnt any element of disappointment though
disappointment will always be present when you find out things were contrary to what you have always thought was true
of course, there will be that certain sense of betrayal present
but, as i said, i have learnt to let go of things that are inconsequential
however, smoking is NOT under my lists of inconsequential things
so yarh
i have no idea why i keep harping on the smoking issue these few days
actuallly, i do know why
and i am certain quite a few people knows why
for those who do not, just take it as i am anti-smoking
hah