I AM SO FUCKING DEAD

if i am unlucky, as is always the case, 10 percent of my grades just went down the drain
fuck
this might be a vulgar post
stop reading if the language bothers you
so there
i forgot the stupid bloody peer review evaluation thing completely
and its a fucking 10 percent of one module of which written paper i most prob screwed up damn badly
like double fuck larh
if i did well then the 10 percent is still ok larh
not that important
but!
that is not the case here
i seriously screwed the paper up majorly
argghhhh
(forgive the lack of vocab, civil or otherwise for my brain does not function well under such distress)
if i am lucky, the prof will still accept the attachment i sent in just now
but i doubt it
they freaking took the whole thing off ivle
rahh
and there was no deadline set so i seriously hope that it will still be accepted

i wonder why the hell as i so bloody screwed up and pathetic now
i am doing fucking badly in school
not that i have ever shone and excel but i was never this screwed
i have not found one new person whom i can really call my friend yet
accquaitances, yes, quite a few of those
but, friends, there just doesn't seem to be anyone
is it me or is it the environment?
i don't know
i cant even claim to be a mugger toad and hence justify my lack of social life because i will be the most pathetic mugger toad ever if i am one
which mugger toad fucking fails her exams the way i am going to???
let me know if anyone knows anyone like that
rahh

if you actually read through the whole entire tiresome rant
and think that i am suffering from depression, i am not larh
its selective depression i am going through, if there is such a thing
its mainly with my fucked up academic life now
i won't go commit suicide or anything
so don't worry
i just needed to rant and get it out of me and i will be better

in fact, i do feel a little better now