vastly disappointed with the results of various projects and assignments this week
that feeling is so not good
poof
i know results are hardly ever proportional to the efforts invested
but i am just so bloody not used to having to work so hard AND not do well
this is extremely extremely annoying
rahh
so there
i know i sound really egoistic saying this, making it sound as if i have been doing well my whole entire life
no, i wasn't the top student or anything
it was just that i always manage to do reasonably ok without having to slog my ass off
but i am slogging my ass off now and doing miserably now
i think i either grew a lot stupider or there are just too many smart people here or i am just so damn lazy that what normal work to other people feels like alot of effort for me
rahhh
i dunno which
but all of the above definitely do not help, anyway
rahh