results vs principles
which would you choose?

one project was all it took to let me see how people think
results and minimal effort is of utmost importance

maybe i am too self righteous or maybe i was one of those poor chinese scholars who would rather starve to death then betray my prinicples in my past life and still retain some remanants of that life in this one
but i have my own prinicples and adhere to them pretty firmly, i would say
and a very part of it has got to do with some values called honesty, integrity and self respect
adn of course, it has been said that i am a freaking perfectionist, but that is beside the point
which explains why i am currently feeling seriously disgusted with myself for doing what i did for the project

call me dumb or anything else you want, but i believe if owing up to your mistakes, learning from it and moving on with life
this extends to my academic work, simply because it is a part of my life
albeit one that may not be particularly enjoyable
which is why i do not copy seniors' lab reports nor do i alter my experimental data even when i know it is screwed up
hence, to me, it is fucking disgusting and amazing how people can ask " can we just change the results?" whenever some form of error crops up
and it seems like i am the only one who feels that such a thing is inappropriate because the rest of the group thinks it is fine and that they have been doing it all along anyway
principles aside, if you can simply make up your own data, then what is the point of spending all the hours in the lab?
but i guess, to many many, it is simply the grade that comes back that matters
everything else does not

they say uni is a transition from school to the working life
if it is really true, i think i am going to hate working life
the way things work and the way people work

i think i shouldn't think too much
i know my life would be alot easier if i could be just like everyone else
but should i be like everyone else?
do i want to?
which brings to mind this evercare card that i've still got somewhere from secondary school
"What is right is right even if nobody's doing it, What is wrong is wrong even if everybody is doing it."

it is not easy doing the right thing when nobody else is doing it.
i think i am too idealistic.