first day of a new year
but honestly, it is just another day

i shall not lie to myself and make new year resolutions because i have never kept any of those that i have made
don't want to sound grouchy but honestly, i do not see how this year will be different from the last
yes, i know it is up to me to make a difference as to how to live my life, but sometimes, it is just not that easy

somehow, i feel as if i have grown so old and jaded, forced to grow up that i no longer believe in "a fresh beginning"
because i know what has happened has already happened, and there is no way you can undo everything and begin "afresh"
things happen, shit happens
what happens subsequently will be to pick up the pieces and piece them together as best as you can and hope like nothing else that what you have left will work well enough
a sad outlook of life, i know
oh well
we all know life is never a bed of roses, don't we?

happy new year, people