i have always believed in signs
i believe that there is someone up there who makes certain things happen to send us messages
and these things are what i call signs
yes, as dumb and incredulous as it may sound, and logical and rational i may seem, i believe in signs

which is why i am feeling pretty much crappy now
upset and disappointed at the fact that such a thing happened again
and even more upset and annoyed at myself for being so ridiculous as to get upset for sth like that which is very obviously not within our control
but i just am

and it makes me wonder whether it is a sign that i always have to be alone at times when i kinda need someone's company the most

gahhh