had a late night talk with two mothers yesterday
disturbing, the things they we talked about
really made me start thinking

i know what i feel is real
but because of what i want and my fears, i do not want a future that what most people want, or think should be
so, in that way
am i being selfish?
am i doing something wrong?

sigh
disturbing thoughts
and i don't really want to think about it all
am too tired, too busy, too scared