my life can never be completely happy and trouble-free, it seems
and that kinda sucks
RAHH

nvm
i am used to it already
if everything is fine at home, there will be boyfriend issues
if everything is fine with the boyfriend, things will be screwed up at home
if everything is fine with the boyfriend and at home, school must be giving me hell
seriously
why cant i have i just have a simple life

but, as i said, i am used to it already
(that is kinda sad, huhh?)

on a slightly brighter note, this week has been pretty ok, i guess
and i want a dragon after watching Eragon
hah
right

shopping tmr
let me find sth nice
i seriously need retail therapy and not being able to find anything nice when you're on retail therapy is sad

my newest acquisition -- a 3 by 5 cm bruise
and on my knee
rahh

when love contains an 'i', it is misspelt and is therefore false love, let him go.

-- Halfway Up the Mountain by Kiran Khalap

such is true love, i think
maybe, i really have been too selfish

lijie is a sadist
she has this utmost amazing ability to screw up her life when she is happiest
kill her, someone

what is the point of being logical and rational?
especially when you know you will not have the mental strength to carry through what you know is the solution
it then just makes you and the other person miserable
sighh

i am sorry
i really am

the week has been pretty wonderful even though i should really get more sleep
and at more normal hours
but, i am a happy girl
(save for the fact that i think someone is pissed off at me now, for something that is both my fault and not my fault)

getting dad's birthday gift and knowing he likes it, shopping with mummy, buying nice clothes that are cheap, meeting dear friends without the nagging thought of projects due and looming exams, being able to watch tv as and when i like, being able to sleep at anytime i like and wake up as and when it pleases me, being able to gym and go for yoga, lie in bed adn read nice books, spending time with a certain someone, and lots lots more
all these make me a happy girl
i really am quite easily satisfied
i still wish someone would stop being annoyed at me though

late night shopping is fun
and most shops offer discounts
but shopping in heels is just plain torturous
those ladies that can plough the shopping center in insane heels have my respect and admiration
bought a pretty gold charm necklace just now, if there is such a thing
its really quite cool
it has a watch, a locket in which you can insert photos, a ring, and this pearl like thingy
really really lovely
:))

there really isn't much of a point to this entry and i am just rambling
but i am happy and i cant get to sleep and i just needed to occupy myself
hah

lijie is a happy girl now

rahhh
my phone is screwing up on me
like majorly
i cant receive calls and messages even when my phone is on, sometimes
ok, alot of the times
but it works at other times
so i never know when on earth it is working or not working

gahhh

the weekend was good

saturday night out
and i seriously think i should start keeping away from alcohol
i suck at drinking
K-box after wala cuz they didn't want to go home
my first K box session was quite an interesting and fun thing, actually
the guys are funny
and jo can sing
but lijie cannot sing
(due to both the fact that i do not keep up with the mando-pop or even any pop scene and that i simply cannot sing)

sunday was fantastic
most probably one of the best in a long time
it was disturbingly heartwrenching to see my dad so happy
not that i don't like to see him happy but the fact that he is so happy so rarely makes it really sad
i thinks he deserve better children than the ones he has

yes, i think know i am a terrible daughter

liberation!
finally

but i dun care about how it will turn out now
it is finally all over
and for that i am glad

time to get a life again