amazing effects alcohol has on people
had much fun with people i knew barely for a week
less, in fact
but everyone was laughing and enjoying themselves at the same time
all thanks to the effect of alcohol
maybe, now i understand why people like to drink
it makes you forget everything and just have fun at that moment
haven't been so high for a while
in fact, i think i drank more tonight than any other night
pretty amazing
hah
ok, i think this is totally incoherent, but forgive a tipsy person typing this

work is getting better
it is even a little fun
haha
but i still cant carry a try properly nor can i stack several huge plates on my hand
oh well
but i think its been an interesting learning experience so far

and my birks are here
yayyyyyyyyyyy
hahahah
thank you for them
:)

my feet are not meant for standing for 6 hours straight
neither are my hands meant for carrying mugs of beer for big fat men
booo
first day as a waitress was bloody hell tiring please
my legs are still aching
bleahhh
i have a good mind to quit
but that is like giving up so easily and it jsut does not feel right
sigh
i shall give myself till the end of this month to see how things go before i decide

i need money to start growing on trees, please

so i woke up at six thirty am to go jog with my mother
but that still failed to put her in a good mood
it did, for a while, but now she is storming through the house again
hmmf
mothers can be so unpredictable

Date of Release of Your Examination Results
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please wish me luck

so i turned down a job that pays about 10 bucks per hour because i felt it was wrong to cheat people
ok, so it wasn't exactly cheating but it is just not right to get people's data by getting them to fill up a lucky draw coupon so that telemarketeers can use this information as leads
there is a lucky draw larh
but i just feel that it is wrong and i gave up a rather well paying job

now, i'm waiting for this call from some restaurant to tell me whether they want me to waitress for them at 5 bucks per hour
that is half (or in fact less) the amount of pay i would have gotten should i have taken up that data collection job
boooo
sadness
hopefully the summer school teaching job will come through as well

finally there is going to be some form of input into my pocket and bank account after the CRAZY amount of money i have been spending
phew
found a job as some data collection thing
pay is rather lucrative, at least as illustrated by the guy, and it does not sound too difficult to achieve
hmmm
lets hope i am right k?
then i can stop being so broke, for a while at least
hah

been haunted by weird dreams nightmares lately
it is seriously disturbing
for the nth consecuetive night, i have been dreaming that i was living in the WW2 period
witnessing all the atrocities and brutality that occured then
and the thing about my dreams is that i remember them
extremely vividly at that
hence, it is not exactly very pleasant to start your morning seeing bloody images and hearing ear piercing screams, even though it is only inside your head
and the worst thing about this whole series of dreams is that i cant bring myself to wake up even when i am scared to death and screaming my lungs out in my dream
i want to wake up but i just cant

and the weirdest thing is that i have not been in contact with any form of materials from the WW2 era
have not read anything set in WW2, did not watch anything regarding WW2 neither did i talk about WW2 with anyone
so where on earth did these images and scenarios come from??
the last time i read anything about this era was for history paper and that was regarding the factors and origins, it was all pretty civil, (i mean the materials, not the war) and not ghastly methods of torture or descriptions of bloody scenarios during war

these disturbing nightmares are depriving me of my rest time
booo
i wake up feeling freaked out and totally un-rested
and i never have had a very high tolerance for blood and gore, especially so when i see myself covered in blood and gore(even if it is only in dreams)
:((

apparently the peter rabbit layout(courtesy of sera from long ago) i had for one day does not work for both IE and firefox
booo
i liked peter rabbit
:((
hence, i changed it to this
not alot of people like green but i like it
hah

question: what would you do if your girlfriend leaves you for another girl?
answer: i will rape the other girl

hah
that was the moment of the day(night)
seriously
met up with the s52 people
great fun, really
although i think the people at cartel at cine must have hated us
separate bills and so many orders
haha
cakes were going at 50%
and i indulged
hah
this was not the end of my sinful night
drinks later then prata for supper
like goodness
there goes my efforts of healthy eating and gym-ing
but wth, it was worth it
hah
i laughed so much that i think i would have trained some ab muscles had i not been eating so much
hhahaha

reached home at like four plus and slept at like almost five but i woke up at like nine or sth
and now i cant go back to sleep
booo
now, i keep feeling like puking and there is this dull headache
i would have said that its a hangover but i hardly drank, much less got drunk so what hangover are we talking about???
oh well
i think my body is going mad

job interviews have been fucking screwed up
not very nice language i know, but it is that way
i have learnt my lesson that jobs advertised as "attractive pay and flexible hours, students on holidays welcome" are normally openings for "individuals who enjoy the challenge of meeting new people and marketing" and at the same time "raising funds" for charity organisations
even a opening described as "event coordinator" requires me to go through training that is basically "raising funds"
i simply cannot stand the way so many companies "raise funds" for charity organisations by recruiting sales people to harrass people on the streets to donate
IT IS WRONG
for one, i have helped with fund raising for charity organisations before and this is definitely not the best wway to do it
honestly, how much of these funds raised by these companies actually go to the charity organisations??
and all these sales people further kills the confidence people have in donating to charity after the whole NKF saga
note, it is sales people
they earn commission
their income is based on the amount of donations they can get
so of course they will try all ways and means to get you to donate
they are not trying to sell you anything
they just want your money to help the needy
RIGHT
and they conveniently left out the fact that some amount of these donations would go towards their pay

yes, they are helping these charity organisations in raising the public's awarenss
but, is this kind of awareness desirable??
people will most probably not remember anythign about the cause of these organisations and will get annoyed and irritated because they are constantly hounded by these irritating sales people
and the more likely scenario is that they will remember the name of the organisation and dismiss it as some sort of scam the next time a REAL VOLUNTEER actually asks for any form of aid
or even if they really do donate, it will most probably be to get these sales people off their backs
so there
rahhhh
i cant decide whether these charity organisations are too silly as to entrust their source of funds to these companies and whether they are aware what sort of image they are portraying, or rather, allowing these companies to portray for them
or that these companies are doing all these without the knowledge of these charity organisations
though i highly doubt the latter option
or are the so called charity organisations simply an empty shell that these people came up with to earn some money off the kind hearted or those who simply couldn't take the insistence of the sales people
i dunno which but i seriously do not think that such "fund raising" efforts are positive and right
so there

life's been pretty boring
nothing interesting at all
no crazy parties, no outrageous outings or anything fun
booo
i so need a life, please

in view of the recent death and burial for my terrapin, this entry shall be a tribute to it

dear pet,
i sincerely hope that you have gone to a better place where you can be free and happy with others of your kind to play with you

although i have always complained about you being picky and troublesome, i did cherish your presence my little bathroom

despite the fact that you eat only XO terrapin food and get diarrhea when you eat vegetables and choke on bread, you did provide a listening ear(or two) when i needed someone to whine to in the middle of the night or when i need something to distract me with silly mundane actions, you provided the distraction
(yes, i talk to my terrapin, as weird/crazy/pointless as that may sound)

i am sorry that i forget your food sometimes, even though it wasn't supposed to be my duty
i am sorry that you have to die in such a horrid, and i am sure, painful way
i am sorry that your grave is quite a sad thing but that was the best we could do

please rest in peace
i will miss you dearly

i mourn the death of my terrapin
it has been a good pet for 5 years and will be dearly missed
watching it grow from a cute little thing to its current state, observing its weird ways of feeding and sleeping, and its extremely picky diet, it provided me with lots of laughter and entertainment in my hours of boredom
but now, it is gone
and it has to die in such a horrible and painful way

i am sorry pet

i hope you find peace in your terrapin heaven