isn't it ironic that the one person who brings that smile to you that easily can make you sad and unhappy equally easily?
i think it sucks to care too much
because that is when you expect the other party to care as much
when that doesn't happen, you get upset
and you become a unreaonable bitch

which is why sometimes, yes, even now, i think i made a mistake in getting into a relationship
by opening that door to that one person, allowing him into the other side of the wall i built around myself to prevent me from getting hurt
because what he touches, or hurs, is the real person
the one that is fragile and emotional and not all that tough, after all
not the face others may see, the tough and independent exterior most people see and know

i do not deny that i am a person with high expectations
especially with things that i have invested significant amount of time and effort into
if not, why bother?
i never liked doing a half-assed job

the feeling of being unwanted, uncared for and neglected sucks
yes, time is something that is extremely precious now
and we are busy
but that doesn't justify the nonchalant "anything lorh"s
i am sensitive to such little things because it is what these little things that seem inconsequential that reveal the true nature of things
maybe i am just not important enough to share something that precious

i should learn how to live my own life by myself again
i should stop trying to fit and arrange my schedule into someone else's
things were better and easier in the past
when i didn't love you so much

mid sem break is here
but there is no break
bleahh
three quizzes after mid sem break
2 days out of town to the neighbouring north to visit food factories
(i hope it will turn out nice, if not i wont be eating alot of stuff anymore)
3 students and 2 tuition classes
tadah
no more mid sem break

booo
:(((

yes, viv and wei, lantern festival on saturday evening or sth if you can

sera, lets hope we can find time on monday evening or the weekend yarh?
we need to meet up soon
its been too long

these days, i wake up every morning wondering what day it is, hoping it is not friday already
which is extremely weird, considering how i used to wish that time would pass faster so that the weekend would be here sooner
now, i am almost dreading the weekends
because that would mean another week has passed and that deadlines and exams are drawing closer
sighh
i have been so busy lately but i have absolutely no idea what is it that has been eating all my time up
the mountain of work i have still remains a mountain, the tell tale eye bags due to lack of sleep still exist, and no, i have not been venturing into town or done anything that resembles shopping or having fun vaguely
and it is not the travelling to and from school either
rahh

i need more time

so the week has zoomed by AGAIN
i seriously am having problems keeping track with the happenings in my OWN life
how sad is that?
sighh

at least saturday night was fun
sera's production then supper at newton circus
i seriously think newton circus is over priced and the food not all that fantastic
but oh well
its the company that matters



these girls who make me laugh

this week is going to be a crazy week because:
1. there is tuition everyday
2. 2 lab reports are due, the third is coming soon
3. there is a quiz next monday but i absolutely have no time to study for it

i don't even want to start on how behind i am in my lectures and readings
sighh
hopefully the coming weeks will be better since there will be one lab less

back to lab report

Happy Birthday Edith!
a little late here.. but oh well
dinner soon...

viv and wei are funny people
they make me laugh
and it is a good thing because laughter is good
:)
thank you, girls

i am a sleepy and angry person now
i mixed up the dates for my hundred words assignment and a quiz(that is 15% of my grades)
bloody hell
so now, at 2317, i am at slide 7 of my 226 slides
RAHHHH

goodbye sleep
hello panda eyes

it feels weird to be kan cheong about a presentation
blehh
a five minute presentation which i finished doing up in thirty minutes
hmmmmm

certain things, once changed, can and will never be the same again

septemeber is here
time has been zooming past me
haven't had the time to slow down and and take in my surroundings since school started
everything has just been a crazy rush
i need to slow down and breathe

t is pretty amazing how a random person whom you haven't seen in more than a year can help put things into perspective and haul you out of the dark valley of depression
a online conversation during a not too interesting lecture put some sense into the thing called my head and things have been looking better since
school is still crazy, things are not perfect
but they seem easier to deal with when you are not depressed
thank you, friend

today was a crazy day
three consecutive classes at the tuition centre then a two hour session with my O levels student
i seriously understand why teachers can be so exhausted after a days' work and be immensely grouchy towards the end of the day
hah

some kids are monsters, some kids are angels
but i still don't want to take the risk of raising monsters