the sun is far too bright and glaring today
and it is giving me a headache even though i am indoors
booooo
yes, i am in an extremely irritable mood today

and i have two classes to teach later
one of which, is the ultimate cause of my extremely bad mood today
blehhhh
i need to exercise extreme self discpline later in order to not scream at her for being a bloody two faced creature
rahhh
stupid people from a stupid country
sometimes, i cant help but feel that some countries are in the state they are in because of the way the people are
the same mentality and attitude, which is not exactly positive
yes, i know this is a generalization
but generalizations only come about when there are enough instances
so there
and i had enough experiences these few months to come up with this generalization
which, i think, is an unfortunate thing

that, however, is not the main cause of my unhappiness now
it is a very long and stupid story of which i am the main cause
blehhhh
which makes it even worse cuz i know i am the one who made my own life miserable
how stupid can one be??

booo
i shall attempt to calm myself down with some ben and jerrys later
and no, i dont care whether i am going to die fat

singapore is really a small place

i met my cousin at junwen's POP at Police Coast Guard (PCG) base
if you are wondering why is that such big news, that is because
1. she hates me and we have never spoken more than three consecutive sentences to each other
2. she is in NUS also and i don't even, or rather, have NEVER seen her in school
3. this is the first time i have ever met her outside any family functions

so yes, singapore is really THAT small
i foresee this will be a conversation topic at the next family dinner, should she actually mention it to anyone there because i am not planning to
boooo

the PCG base is really quite pretty and rather unlike an camp
the scenery is NICE
it is opposite sentosa island country club
and club members do pay an arm and a leg to maintain the place, so yarh
it is nice
the people there are taking advantage of these people
will try to post some pics to prove my point
hahah

it is raining and i cant go for yoga
booo
i woke up early to go for yoga
but it was pouring so i couldn't go
sighh
i am destined to die fat
:((

goodbye, olive ristorante

last day at work
i must say i think i made the right decision
work was not all that terrible
it was fun while it lasted and it was a learning experience but the pay is PATHETIC
and work is bloody hell tiring
don't start on the 'i'm a spoilt brat' talk till you experince what i had to do
so yarh

walked around town with viv and dion for a while
dion had to leave for work shortly
i bought a book!
thanks to dion for her staff discount
wheee
i paid less than 10 bucks for a book
:)))

sera's back in singapore too
:)
the first thing she did when she came back was to call me to curse and swear about a particular hypocritical encounter she had at the airport
hah

went over to her place later in the evening with lots and lots of food
i swear i am becoming a pig lately
booo
oh well

i dont care if i die fat
right

i wish to run away into the grey skies and pouring rain
an attempt to run away for what i know will never go away and my responsibility in the not-too-far future
caught between a choice of the heart and the mind
apparent cruelty to one or to all
sacrificial of one to keep the whole intact

is that acceptable?
i don't know

please help me to help you
i am at my wits end already

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY!

right
so i don't think many dads, or any, for that matter, will read this
but it IS fathers' day and i think it is only right to show due appreciation to our dads for all they have done

a simple meal with the family at a simple coffeeshop
but i think it was easily one of the best meals i have had in a while
it is really the companyt that matters

i have a sudden desire to splurge
no, i am not depressed and it is not really retail therapy
although some idiot at work did piss me off majorly yesterday, but that is beside the point
hah
i think its more like a feeling that i ought to reward myself for all my hard work these few weeks
but, the pathetic amount i am getting for my pay does not even cover what i want to get
:(

sponsors are welcome
no, this is not a hint to you

it seems that office politics occur everywhere
even if everybody seems to be really chummy with each other
actually, i think that is when all these nonsensical politics start
sigh
why must the world be such a complicated place?
in a not too big restaurant of less than 20 people at any one time, there can still be so much such nonsense
what more in a bigger organisation with more people?
wouldn't it be totally scary?
at least the politics now don't involve me
i am just going to steer clear of all these
i am only a part-timer anyway
hah

in these three weeks on my job, i think i have learnt alot
how a restaurant operates
how to acknowledge my mistake with a smile (given that all these mistakes are things like serving the wrong food adn drinks)
and how to deal with different people
met more kinds of people than i have ever
learnt alot about and from other people's life experiences
learnt how the betting system for soccer works
hah
no, that is not part of my job scope

it is amazing(to me) how people of my age or maybe a few years my senior has been through so much in life and knows what they want in their life when i am still lost and trying to find my bearings in uni
how people my age has the guts to leave their familiar surroundings behind to venture into a totally new environment and phase of life
especially when circumstances does not require them to do so
they could be comfortably studying, back at home

and no, contrary to what many would htink, i have NOT broken any plates or spilled anything on any customers
but i have dropped a few forks and knives when i clear tables
so there
haha

one word to describe how i am feeling now
TIRED
but i cant sleep
boo

work today was a series of disgusting encounters with bugs
btw, i think flying bugs are extremely stupid creatures
they like to drown themselves in all sorts of ridiculous places and create trouble and inconvenice everybody
boo
so, the first disgusting encounter with bugs was in the toilet
all, i mean ALL the toilets bowls had bugs that drowned in them
eeeeuuuukkks
nvm
then, i went to the back of the restaurant to set throw rubbish
and
the whole floor was littered with wings of the above mentioned bugs
like DISGUSTINGLY DISGUSTING please
as if that is not enough, they decided to drown themselves in the minute amounts of water left on the cutlery that was not dried on saturday night
WHAT THE HELL
it is GROSS larh

that is just with bugs
there is STILL the horrifying lizard/chamelon story
the bloody disgusting and terrifying reptile was on my apron when I WAS WEARING IT
argggghhh
and it was looking at me with those beady eyes, shooting daggers at me and sending psychic signals to make me scream
and i screamed at work
bloody hell
how embarrasing
had to ask the uncle chef to get the bloody thing off me
argh

what a perfectly terrible way to spend a sunday morning
i hate creepy crawlies and bugs

i think i am suffering from insomnia again
booo
yes, i know its only eleven and its really early
but i am super tired
yet, i cant get to sleep
blehhh
and there is work tmr

on a brighter note, i am a happy person today
because i got to eat my tiramisu
been having a tiramisu craving for a long time, ok, since noon yesterday
haha
and a someone made my day
thank you
:)

i watched the opening match of the world cup
the first half of it
because i cant sleep
hehhh
it was a rather exciting match laaa
but i just cant really appreciate the beauty of 20 people chasing after one ball
hmm
oh well

it's the world cup season so maybe i shall watch a few games when i cant get to sleep
haha

dinner yesterday with the girls
conversation really changes when you reach twenty
the big two O
hmmm

shopping in town with viv today
didn't buy much
no, wait, correction
didn't buy anything
:(
and there was a super rude woman at Guess
boo to her
she actually snatched something i was looking at and holding onto out of my hands
like hello
some form of basic courtesy please
blehhh
horrid
and she had the cheek and atrocity to ask me to move away
wth
go back to where you come from then go snatch from the rest of the people there
it is people like you who gives your fellow nationals a bad name
shame on you

dinner was good though
heh
pasta at spaggedies(i think that's how its spelt) at paragon
yummy
walked down to PS to find out that the bakerz inn there no longer exists
:(
was on the way home then say bakerz inn at raffles city
haha
i forgot that there was one there
and we actually got off the bus to have dessert
hahah
warm chocolate cake
yummilicious
so i guess i had a good day after all

thank you

grey sky-ed morning with rumbling thunder in the background
PERFECT weather to sleep in
but! i got to get to work soon
booooo
and how am i going to climb up the hill in the rain???
double booo

my feet are like seriously about to fall off
work is tiring
sigh
i tried to ask to not go to work tmr but ended up working in the morning as well
boooo
what is this?
oh well