three day week this week!!
yayyyy
no labwork at all!!
double YAYY

lijie is a happy girl
:)

sometimes, i am amazed at my own thoughts
i cannot understand how my own mind works
so i doubt it will be esay for anyone else to do so
and i cant decide whether that is a good thing or not

i wish i can say it doesn't bother me
but it does
and majorly
been through it, raged about it
but nothing changes

tired

lijie's pet peeves on the public transport system

1. people who put the horrid sounding music (read: techno, diabetically sweet, act cute and weird sounding stuff) on the speakers on their handphones
then, proceed to speak really loudly with their friends to be heard over the noise they create.
2. people who has to sit on the seat next to the aisle on the bus and inconvenience other commuters
3. smelly people (ok, fine, so some of them cannot be faulted because of the nature of their work or activities, but still)
4.people who simply cant take their wallets out of their bags and insist on testing the sensitivity of the machine by burying their wallets in the bag and brushing their bags against the machine
and in the process hold up everyone else behind them
5.people who sit down and pretend to sleep when they see an old man/woman or extremely pregnant lady beside their seat
6.people who eat on the bus and leave their junk on the seats
7.people who prop their legs on the behind of the seats even though there are other commuters sitting on the seat in front of them


i will add on to the list when i think of more
but seriously
we could all do with some form of civic mindedness and consideration for others

i should stop being such a negative person
i must start to think positive and learn to take things that aren't going my way better
but i cant help it
i am such a freaking perfectionist and do not see the point of doing things just for the sake of doing it
sighhh

try lijie, try
i will

i most probably should stop talking to myself and my things too

ok
i have been spending too much money lately
seriously
i blew almost three hundred bucks in a week
sighh
i guess it did kinda made me a happier
but still

and Guess is taking really long to alter my pants
its almost a week already k..
i know its free alteration and i shouldn't be mean
but it is really a little too long

i tried to forgive and forget
but i cant do it
i am no saint
so?
shoot me

i swear my life is one fucking rollercoaster ride that never ends
when it seems like everything is almost perfect, or as good as it can get, things will definitely come crashing down
harder, more sudden and more painful than ever before

i tried
but all that happened was i got increasingly disappointed

how do you escape from something that has no exit?
you simply cant
not until you disappear, at least

it is almost four in the morning but i am wide awake
alcohol makes me more awake after the initial highness
weird
but oh well
i had a good time
it was as if all of us were arguing the whole night and bitching and ranting but i don't think anyone actually got angry
i think THAT is the beauty of it all
it is therapeutic in some sort of weird way
hah

thank you peeps for the wonderful time
it really did make my week so much better

i love my friends
even though we can be so damn screwed up and have such warped logic and viewpoints
even though we sometimes come down too hard on each other
even though we feel like murdering each other sometimes
even though we sometimes feel like the other is being a total bitch
but i guess that is what makes a real friendship
all the bad times and the more wonderful good times
the anger, the annoyance, the laughter, the understanding
i am grateful for the bunch of people who make my currently not too pleasant life so much better


thank you friends

today is a brand new day
i will not be angry and pissed off
i shall learn to love my group members

i so need to rant
but i have already ranted on this before
but i cant help it
i am really really really really really damn pissed off
RAHHHH

herd instinct
RAHHHH

currently in the lab
i have been here since 0930
and have not left this place except to use to washroom

my enzyme fucking died
rahh
that is more than ten hours of work that went along with it
someone, kill me

on monday, my mum injured her left leg and had to have a minor surgery
she got discharged today
today, my dad injured his left leg too

seriously, i didnt know whether to laugh or to sigh when i saw my parents both limping just now
too loving, they are

i am annoyed
seriously
whatever happened to me??
i am constantly getting bad grades
WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED OR IS HAPPENING TO ME???
it wasn't like that
so i did not study as much as those who mug twenty hours a day
but seriously, i don't deserve such grades laa

i really am on the verge of giving it all up and graduate with a fucking bachelor of science and go be a teacher or go sign up with the army or just be one of those persons you see on shenton way scurrying through the sea of humanity at nine and then five again or something, anything
i am so fucking sick and tired of trying and failing again

i hate feeling stupid

i detest being the invisible person
i hate people not using their brains and just following blindly
what is the point of doing something when you don't even know what purpose it serves?
working with people who don't use their brains is a torture
sighh


since everyone is doing it the same way
we should just follow
herd instint
i never had any

maybe i am the weird one out

edit at 1852:
after 5 brain numbing hours in the lab, i have been sitting in the library for about 1.5 hours, attempting to write that thing called the lab report
and i have yet to add anything constructive to it

tuition at 2000
hope i don't die

lesson learnt today
next time, when a group of 4 number suddenly flashes in your mind, buy the number for 4D
bloody hell
this is a damn expensive lesson, please
i could have been a few hundred if not a thousand richer
rahhh
it was third prize laaa

i want to box myself

mid sem break is over
wait, what break??
there wasn't time to rest at all
boo
oh well
at least the malaysia trip was rather fun although the food factory visits kinda convinced me that i don't want to work in one
so why in the world am i doing the course i am doing now?
i have no answer too

friday night with sera, viv and wei at wala wala was good too
lots of fun
hah
this friday night thing is becoming an almost regular affair and it definitely is something i can get used to
:)
although i will have to go to work on saturday morning looking pretty much like crap
but wth
nobody i need to see or impress at the tuition centre anyway
so its worth it

hanging out with people you actually want to see and hang out with is possibly one of the best ways to have fun and get a good laugh
so, giving up some sleep for that is worth it

more girls' night out, please
:))