i promise i will pay more attention in lectures next sem
just let me LIVE through this one
one more hour to paper and i am seriously dead
marketing is NOT my forte
but then again, what really is my forte??
i dunno too
the first time ever when i look at sample papers and nothing comes to mind
nothing at all
like seriously blank
like HUHH?
what am i supposed to write for that??
my answer to a 25 mark essay was something like three lines long
this cannot happen later

breathe lijie breathe
it will be over soon
right
and maybe i will be out of school soon too
do uni expel people cuz of bad grades?
anyone knows??

here's a list of things i wnat to do after my exams
hmm
it might be a little too early
but will be free and liberated after 4 more days
so wth
here goes, in no order of any form of any sort
1. go out with my girl friends and do silly stuff like we always do
2. go christmas shopping
3.watch exorcism of emily rose (hopefully its still showing and i can find someone to watch it with)
4.LOSE WEIGHT (ok, maybe i gotta start a little earlier, like now)
5. meet up with friends whom i haven't seen in ages
6. go for nice food
7.plan for a christmas party (hopefully?)
8. stay snuggled in bed and do nothing the whole day (actually i am already doing that now, albeit on the pretense that i am looking at my notes on the laptop)

hmmm.. i thnk that is about it off the top of my head now
but i am sure the list will grow longer soon
haha

ok..
so i was bored and decided to do some silly stuff online

Your Summer Ride is a Beetle Convertible

Fun, funky, and a little bit euro. You love your summers to be full of style and sun!

What's Your Summer Ride?

and this is my favourite car!!
haha.. ok, one of my favourite cars.. =D

w

Your Birthdate: January 12

You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame. You tend to charm strangers easily. And you usually can get what you want from them. Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing. You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship. Your strength: Your charm Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics Your power color: Indigo Your power symbol: Four leaf clover Your power month: December

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

right, headed for fame
maybe i will be the first one to get kicked out of NUS
i am not manipulative or charming wither i think
oh well
i believe most will agree with me
hah

yes, boredom can kill
and no, my exams aint over yet

not printing out my notes is a mistake
cuz i will end up doing stupid things on my laptop when i am supposed to be studying
like now
all my notes are on my computer
and i have been surfing the web adn playing pinball on my comp since morning
WHEN I AM SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING
rahh
yes
i know there is something called self-discpline
but that something happens to be something i do not possess
err..
that sounded kinda weird
but oh well
you know what i mean right?
i apologise for my bad english now
which is another cause for worry simply because the two remaining papers are arts papers
which means essays and more essays
rahhand marketing plans as well
poof
i know i am ranting and whining again

did i mention how fat i am now too?
credit to home made kaya toast
semi-hard slices of butter sandwiched between slices of bread spread with thick fragrant egg jam
and chocolates donated to me by my uncle
they keep me awake in the afternoon and night respectively
yes
i know i am becoming a pig
and i deserve to grow fat because all i have been doing for the past month is to sit on my ass and click away at the computer
rahh

right,
now back to work
i shall TRY not to play till i finish

i just engaged on a terrappin (is that how it is spelt?? ) hunt
my terrappin of almost 5 yrs decided to explore its owners' house
gosh
i just realised i had that terrappin for 5 years already
is that long or what??
hahha
but my beloved pet has a habit of running away from its station in the house
the bathroom actually
oh well
but thankfully it has been found after a short time
unlike its past disappearance stint which lasted a month
suprisingly, it didn't starve to death in that one month
it decided to appear again after being too hungry i guess

have i mentioned my pet eats only terrappin food and nothing else
no, it doesn't eat bread and veggie like normal terrappins
it gets diarrhea if it eats veg and it chokes on bread
yes
it is that eccentric
hahah

how many times can one die?
more than once apparently
for me anyway
cuz i am about to die again
poof
honestly i thought i finished studying for this already
then i realised.
2 hours before the freaking paper
that...
i very very intelligently forgot alot of stuff
which i looked at before
like now
ok, i know this goes to show that i did not understand my work before
and i do not deny this fact
sigh
which means i am going to die again
maybe more painfully
not like the last time wasn't painful enough
i could not even do half of hte freaking paper

hope what i know will come out and what i don't wont
-cross fingers really really tightly-
(i haven't learnt how to cross my toes yet, if not i will cross them too)

one more hour and 2 more chapters to go
nothing is going in anymore
wish me luck people
i am so dead
pls remember the black roses for my funeral yarh?

dear friends,
please start writing your eulogies for me
i will be dead in about 20 hours
slaughtered and ripped apart by the thing they call exams
i know i might not have accomplished very much in this short life of mine
and that i can be a nasty person at times
but
pls do attend my funeral if there is anything left of me to hold one
thank you

question of the day: what has the HIV virus got to do with carbohydrates?
ans: they both appear in the same set of notes

yes
that is the only relationship they have
i think
of course, i am not too certain since i cant claim to be very well versed in my notes or this module
but
virus and carbohydrates do have a vast difference
then, why on earth did they appear in the same set of notes at which i have been at for the whole freaking day
i am so dead
two more days lect and i am still not even half way through
in fact i think i am only like 1/5 done maybe
even that i cant be certain
i am in trouble
yes
and i can only blame it on MYSELF
my lazy-ass of a self
rahh
i shall attempt to get more completed by tonight and figure out what has HIV virus gotta do with carbohydrates
i will put the answer up if i can find it

three more days and it is the 18th
that is the start of my exams fyi
rahh
and i am totally totally unprepared
fuck
and nothing is going into my little head
been looking at the computer screen everyday for i have no idea how long
my eyes are red and tear extremely easily now
and not to mention the freaking headache that has been here since i dunno when is still here
poof
i know i am ranting
let me rant and whine
cuz i am that stressed and mightily irritated
with myself mainly
falling sick now
and not preparing in advance
rahh

did i mention i made a freaking cheesecake yesterday?
yes
someone should just kill me for all those things that i did except to study
rahh
i am so so dead
i want black roses at my funeral please

i saw an old man who looks like santa claus
hmm
or i shall say he looks exactly how i think santa claus should look like
without the big beard
he has really really thick bushy white eyebrows
blue twinkling eyes and rosy cheeks
ok, or maybe he simply look like a kindly old grandfather
hmmm
oh well but there was this christmas-y mood in raffles city yesterday
so maybe thats why he looked like santa claus
haha
ok
so weekend is almost gone again
and i haven't done anything productive
as usual
splitting headache seems to be here to stay too
poof
it won't go away despite the many hours of sleep i prescribed to myself
rahhh

five more days to D-day
only 5 more
and i haven't start
someone HELP!!

sitting in front of the computer
the mind a total blank
nothing going in and nothing constructive coming out either
eyes tired
as if pieces of lead have been attached to my eyelids
forcing my little eyes to keep open
forcing my throbbing head to process the 10 000 words marketing plan
and no, i am not exagerrating
the word count says 10519 words
seriously
poof
but nothing is going
consequently, nothing constructive is coming out
rahhh
someone help

i think i am growing old
falling sick like nobody's business lately
rahh
ok, it IS nobody's business except my own larh
but what the hell is happening??
why am i falling sick so often now
especially when i don't have the luxury to stay at home and rest
poof
this is disgusting
have all the bugs suddenly taken a liking to me??
i dun like them
and i have been living my life in pretty much the same manner
maybe less fun, more work
but that's all
i have not picked up any bad habits or anything to cause such a serious deteoriation of my health
i drink the necessary amount of water
i eat my veggies and fruits
i try to sleep as much as i can

why on earth am i falling sick like this??
rahh

stupid headache go away

ok
so i said i will stay at home and mug today
but i have not done anything that is remotely close to mugging since i woke up
and i have been awake since 8 this morning
poof
i have been slacking and eating and baking and doing everything else there is to do
except study
as usual
i just cant study at home
i have no idea why on earth
maybe its the fengshui at home
or more likely, its just the plain old fact that i am a major slacker
rahh

seems that a lot of my friends are in the midst of their exams now
good luck all my dears
i will start when most of you end
so your can wish me luck then

i better seriously try to read tt freaking book
my own exams are not too far off too

i think i am going mad
i get very agitated and annoyed by things which do not really concern me
and i am supposed to be studying for a test on tuesday but i just spent my whole entire day sleeping and doing rubbish
does anyone feel like that there is so much to do that it can never be completed
hence, you do not even try to do anything?
that's how i feel like now
i know i can never finish studying for the test in time
so i don't want to start studying for it
then i can tell myself i did badly because i didn't study for it
somehow, that's more of a consolation then i didn't study hard enough for it
does that make sense?
i dun think anyone can really understand what i am trying to say
and yes, i agree this post is just incoherent and the language, unbearably bad
but i don't care
rahh



and not to mention a horrid presentation yesterday did not help start my weekend pleasantly
poof

i don't know what i am saying
maybe i should just stop here and not make it worse

happy deepavali
i spent my day in school
ok, i know there was no link between those two lines but it just came to mind
and i think it rhymes somehow
oh well
but yes
i spent my day in school
presentation tmr AGAIN
rahh
i HATE projects and presentations

goodness..
i actually managed to connect to the internet
like finally after eternity
haha
my comp is mad i swear but anyway, i am rather happy now that i can go online
haha
need to upload my proj stuff
yes, i am actually worried about it
hmmm..
maybe i can really become a mugger toad
that is a good thing right?